Was I Different?

A recent conversation I had with my aunt brought many questions and a bit of sadness to my mind. She said to me " you were such a sweet kid... you still are... but you were different them"... when I supplied "yea, but I was so shy", she corrected me "you became shy... you were very outgoing, loved talking to everyone... really fun- loving!" What?!?! This astonishes me... and saddens me. My biggest area of concern regarding myself has always been my personality. I tend to clam up around a lot of people and am just plain shy (although often mistaken for snobbiness).

A major flaw I have (to add to the many) is I tend to place blame on others. My personality, and my shyness, was always one thing I couldn't blame anyone for. I've been like this since birth. But now... maybe I haven't. The divorce affected me in ways I couldn't even fathom. I know I shouldn't dwell on the past, but my subconscious is doing a good job for me.